Yaadien...yaad aati hain

chandani raato me,
tanhayi ki raato me
neendh nahi aati hain,
toote hue dil,muskurane ki himmat mein,
yaadien gun guna ti hain,muskurate hain.
mujko rulati hain.


Haar gaye hum jeete duniya ke ras me
Phir kyon sathane aayi woh baatein tumhari,
saaso ko choone aayi tumhari saase,
dard ke lehar me hum behtein jaaye,
jeena bi mushkil haito mar bi na paye,
jeeke bi marne ki aadat hogayi.

Ab saath mein mere ,yaadon ki gere
jeena bi hai jeeke nibhana bi hai,
yaadien sathathi hain,
mujko rulati hain,
yaadien yaad aati hain.

Run lola run ....Fire in the hole!!!

It was sunday evening ,as usual getting ready for the next week ,went to SCHUNKS to buy vegetables to cook.
We were busy adding stuffs to cart.Ppl were stearing outside likenever before ,i thought new year fireworks just started.
Cart was full enough to carry hand bags.Came out to walk back home.

One building was burning like to keep warm at winter ,firealarms are sounding all over.
Fire vehicles are speeding to save ppl.Roads are busy,me and roomie busy talking about my darling new car.
We tried to recognize which building it is,our eyes turned to the direction of the huuuuge flame coming out of the building which almost looked like out apartment.
Called another roomie "Dude ,where are u?"
muttu says " i am at home".
me "Looks like our apartment is burning,i can see"
muttu says "I think its not ours ,behind ours"
me (thinking ..behind ours is a road ..which is not possible,,next to ours is a friends apartment oh mannnnnn shit for a moment heart felt tussssssss) " ok i am coming".

I started walking with another full tensed roomie priyesh says"abey mere ko dar lag raha chalo yaaar baagthe baago "
me started thinking all worst possibilities Run lola run ....Fire in the hole!!!.I was still walking but my tensed roomie was putting long legs.
as and when flame nears to sight it was looking like ours.so i started running.In b/w called friends who stays next to us .Some picked up ,some didnt ..some called me .Luckily all were safe.

Reached home.. all american police mamas were busy like in any hollywood movie.Lots of ppl watching the shooting.Fire wardens ..water supply ...police mama's all were busy playing with high speed water.
Luckily it was not my apartment.(Bach gaya is baar :)).It was some small company next to apartment.It was sunday no one was at office.May be some one who dont want to come to office during holidays might have done that.
All desis staying at my apartment busy warming and taking pictures.We will never change :)

Its all gone in matter of minutes,we were very close to burning building ,there was a little possibility that it would have touched ours but fire wardens and all those were excellent.
Still my tensed roomie was ready to pack stuffs ...for a minute he was thinking to open his treasury..lol.

I feel sorry for the owner of the company.Employees must be happy that their holidays got extended till they find another building ,lol.

for a moment value of life came in front of eyes.

8.30 AM

7.45 am my alarm starts making annoying voice which feels like some one crushing my head with hammer. My roomie shouts "Abey ut , kitna sotha hey thu? office nahi aana kya? .Gurmeet ne phone kiya tha ,he will be coming by 8.30 (only this statement in english) ".
abey har din aisa hi bolta hai ...gurmeet tho har din aata hai.. wahi din..wahi office ..wahi client ..wahi kaam ..(me murmering and again back to my bed ..i just love that :) ).

8.15 am around i get a call ,i usually dont check whose call is that ,i have been getting these calls from many months ." chethannnnn what time you leaving ? can you give me a call when u leave ? "

me:ok ,i am still sleeping deepika , gurmeet will come in 15 mins ,get ready .

dee:ok chethan , i will be having my breakfast (upma).

me:ok.(ayyo, its freaking cold and she is having nice hot upma:)..

oh sun why do u rise everyday ? why cant u hide or take PTO from ur work ,may be sun dont know what reason he has to give for PTO,ask me or any S/W engineer.I have so many reasons from killing relatives to getting bad headache.

I have to get up, no other option ,and ofcourse i need to take bath .I stand infront of shower and switch it on and stand sleep ,turn back some times put shower gel or dove :) .3 mins bath is over .I have got 1 min to put my clothes and get ready like proffessional software engineer.After all this when i get ready i say good morning to my friend ganesha .

"8.30 abey gurmeet aaya chalo chalo" .. deeps also comes ,sit inside honda accord and thats the way to start .Inside the car khailash kher starts "pyar hai ya saja ,hey mere dil bata ...tootha kyon nahi dard ka silsila ...oh rabbbaaaa " and some times Rehmans " maiya ,maiya...".

I laugh at myself and my routine life .I get bored fast if the things get repeated .Yeah after coming here i have redifined my self so much ,my happines,my week ends,my loneliness,parties,learnt so much as a part of love life .Yeah its a memorable 7 months .I definitely gonna remember these days forever .I got to meet nice ppl here,spent some good days of life.Hope they recognized me well.

Some days were sad , some are funny ,some are lengthy,some are boring,some were crying ,some are memorable ,some were sick,some are laughs,some were heart broken

If the world would end today
All the dreams we had would all just drift away, oh
No, there’s nothing more to say
If the world would end and all loves drift away

I never thought all the love I was looking for
Could ever be so close to me

----Guns n Roses

24+ Happy birth day to me

The day which makes me feel like i am old ,day which increases my scrap count in orkut,
day i get blessed so much ,day i feel like i can be sooo happy too .

It was my bday .I added one more year to my age count.I finished 24.

So many wishes, so many messages,so many calls ,all that they are saying is "Happy birth day " .
It just feels sooo good to hear 3 golden words :).

I got an advantage of time ,ppl started calling me from Nov 2nd IST. I just kept on speaking and saying thanks ,thank u so much ,thank u.

Started from ASHRAMA boys and ended in big party.On site friends celebrated very differently..that was amazing .

Dad and mom did diffrent poojas to diff gods,morning pooja,evening pooja .Sorry dad ,i was never an ideal son .sorry mom i broke ur promise.

Ppl are so much interested in my crazy birthday resolutions.Its my bday resolution to drive a Ferrari in US by next birthday ,hahahh of course it will be rented(Too much ambitious:))

I don't mind renting for half an hour ,i will be happy that i will own Ferrari for Half an hour:).

Its my resolution to get back the friend which i lost couple of days back,i am working on it .Sorry my friend i was honest to my soul.I told whatever i felt ,i was honest for myself.

Finally day started to disappear ,day ending ,if god comes back and ask me i will ask him to keep on restarting today.

Thank u guys for ur presence ,wishes,calls,messages.These means lot to me .Oh god why me ? let others grow not me !!!..hahahh

Mera dil itna paagal

hum kya jaane ,woh choti si dil me hai kya?
bus pooch raha hoon ,hum ko bi udar bitadena?
hum be mehsoos karenge ..plz ek bar chance dena.


tadap ta hai dil ,tumhari woh chehra dekne ko,
mera dil itna paagal,kaise bolu andar ki awaaz ko.
jab bi chalta hoon tumko dekne ko ,man mangta hai baagne ko.



aajkal tu bi na ,sab jagah rehti hai .
jab bi baat karti hoon tumse,dil muskurati hai.
jab bi kaata hoon,lagta hai thu mere ko khilarahi hai.(Maa gayi:)
kahi baite to ,lagta hai thu mere bagal me hai.


jab katrina thi life mein,saala apun bi bahut kush tha,
kya variety american daaru, kya cigarette ,kya life tha,
hey kya pyar me aake phas gaya,
is dard ko chupa nahi sakta,dika bi nahi sakta.

Beta bahut dard hota hai.

dil doondtha hai usko pata nahi kaha kaha ,
ek pal bi nahi rehsakta uske bina ,
chain nahi milta ,neendh nahi aata uski chehra dekh ne bina
pata nahi kyon hum ko bi pyar hogaya .

pal pal soch ta hoon uski baare me
hamesha uski muskurahat aati hai saamne
jab bi sochta hoon uski baare me
man udta hai aasmaan me.

bahut sapne dekta hoon teri baare me ,
bahut aage sochta hoon life ki baare me,
ek din to ro hoonga teri saamne,


mere ko to pata nahi tu milegi ya nahi milegi
bas hey to pata hai ,dil me thumara chaap rahegi .

bus choti si oh pal itna meeta tha ,
us time me to hum saala dil kul ke bola tha.
pata nahi tumhari kya irada
pata nahi hamara manjile hai kaha
mai to kar raha hoon hey vada
"nahi ji sakta hoon tere bina"

bus pooch raha hoon tera kya irada
karlo meri jaan saath jeene ka vada.

hamesha rota ta , bolta ta " dosto humko pyar kyon nahi hota " ,
aaj pata chala jab pyar hota hai , beta bahut dard hota hai.

Lonelines is killing me

These days i am alone ,i sit alone in a corner of the house and eat,i work alone,i drink alone ...yeah loneliness is killing me .

After the beautiful 4 years of college life and 2 years of ASHRAMA life ,these days i am feeling that i am missing some thing and that feeling came as a result of my loneliness .Friends are apart, they are busy meeting their goals ,they don't speak like they were before ,i cant ask them to be ...every one busy defining their life .

If i keep writing what i am missing here it may become a big list.Lets cut it short .I miss 3 things close friends ,family ,namma bangalore .Every week end i think what i would have done if i was in bangalore .Suddenly ASHRAMA ,Indiranagar BDA ,Brigade road on Jumpa or anups apache ( i laugh loudly when i recall that jumpa bought a bike by cash:) ) ..I miss southern bangalore too much that too kids playing outside the house ,during festive seasons vijaya nagar ,jayanagar and malleshwaram markets will be full of girls and aunties wearing traditional dresses with thieir parents .Some girls coming out of the temple after the pooja with small kumkum on their forehead ,loosers like us waiting outside the temple near to sandals .Those brigade road walking,dashing ,drunk nights ,bars ,mama's, DSP,monk,dirty ashrama and cleaning that on sundays ,sunday afternoon suswad ,akshay sagar,punabi rasoi oh yeah pink pepper,birthdays,nandi hills ,seniors house.

I miss doing all this things ,things are changed now all that i have is my laptop and internet.When i hold my laptop i feel that i can see bangalore,i can see the world ,i can reach any one and talk to them but that feeling is very hard to get it back .


I am bored of this routine life when i ask some one suggestions they say
as and when u grow u and ur priorities keep changing and i need to redifine my happines and i need to realize that i was young long back but i am like a kid crying for the melted fallen icecream.Dad may buy me new ice cream when i cry but it will not taste as the previous because i sipped that icecream with full feelings till my throat ,i cant to do that again because i dont think i will get that feeling or that icecream most importantly that timing.Yeah i am crossing 24 ,loneliness is killing me